Hi everyone, how are you all this week?
Everything is good here, other than feeling exhausted I’m doing really well. I’ve had a busy few days and I’ve really enjoyed it. Last week I talked about how I’ve been avoiding social situations, but I’ve had a little more energy this week and had fun seeing friends.
We had some beautiful Yorkshire weather on Thursday so I took advantage of that by heading out for a walk around the fields with my friend Kat and our dogs. If living in the UK has taught me anything, its that spring/summer only comes for a couple of days at a time, and I can confirm this is true as its raining again now… glad I got out when I did. A walk like that completely zaps my energy now though, so luckily I had a very relaxing afternoon planned. After the walk, we went to a lunchtime mindfulness session, which has recently started up on the base. I’ve tried mindfulness and meditation before, but I find it hard to do on my own so it was nice to be in a group where the meditation was guided. It was only a short 20-minute session, but I found it helpful just to switch off from the world for a short time. The relaxation continued with a massage from the fairy princess that is Carly (I’m not manic, don’t worry… anyone who knows her will understand what I mean). I go into her sanctuary and leave feeling calm and chilled out, like I’m floating on clouds. She fixes all my pregnancy aches and pains, as well as my mind. I don’t spend a lot of money on myself anymore, but this is my favourite monthly treat. The only problem is that time passes way too quickly when I’m there.
Saturday was another great day, and I got to catch up with more friends. I started off the day meeting a friend who I haven’t seen years and even then I didn’t know her that well, so I was quite nervous. It almost felt like going on a first date, but it was lovely to see her. We chatted over coffee and bagels, I’ll admit, I had to hit the real coffee instead of decaf as I needed some extra energy to carry me through the afternoon. We hugged as we left, and agreed to meet again soon. To some people this seems like a simple event, but for me it’s an achievement and reminds me how well I’m doing mentally. When I’m not feeling so well, I wouldn’t even consider putting myself in that situation so I’m kinda proud of myself. After this it was time to go home for a quick change of clothes, and off to Monika’s 30th birthday afternoon tea. Another situation I’d find it hard to be in when I’m not feeling my best. I really enjoyed seeing friends, and of course the sandwiches and cake.
I’ve also done my last shifts at work this week. Military life means a lot of moving around so I’m used to leaving people/jobs behind, and mostly, I’ve been happy to leave previous jobs but not this time. I never thought I’d say this, but I’m genuinely sad to be leaving. I haven’t been there long, but for the first time in a long time I enjoyed going to work and I made some great friends. It’s not like I’m not going to see them again, but still, I think I might even be in denial as I still have my leaving meal later in the week. I’ll probably get emotional, just need to make sure I don’t get too tearful. Don’t want to ruin my make up after all… (Just for the record, I’m joking).
Before I go, I want to remind everyone that it’s OK to be happy. We go through more than enough difficult times in life, and when we struggle with our mental health it doesn’t make things any easier. But sometimes, things just come together and we are happy. Try not to compare yourself to everyone else, because we are all going through different things. Take some time and notice what YOU are doing because what seems like a small, unimportant event to others might be a huge achievement for you. You got out of bed today? Be proud of yourself!!
And with that, BRING ON MATERNITY LEAVE.